The Toughest Days for This Entire Year

I had to suffer some severe headaches this few days back. I guessed it was due by my lack of sleep and my computer game obsessions. Oh well, thats precisely happens when you don't get enough sleep. It was a painful suffering I had to go through. Its one of those time where I could always get a friend or someone to help me through this all. It was a struggle at first but I managed to make it. Thank God.

Well, there isn't much happenings today. Too bad then. I hope theres something coming to hit me sooner or later. Anyways, that's all.

ByeBye!
Take Care =DD
Sayonara.

done with my life's torturings

Love has caught me up with everything in my life. Caused me lots of injuries and especially heartbrokened by that certain person. I'm here posting this because I look up at my older posts of my love life long ago. I see that love does have a purpose in life. I realised that love can help in many ways. One of its way to help me is by helping me achieve in my studies. Last time whenever I think about her, I can remember what I read a while ago. Well, that was last time till I found out that she was actually cheating me. Yes, she was cheating on me. She ever said she love me. It turned out to be she love someone else. I guess I'm just not her type. Not the right fit.

Thinking about the other posts makes me think how stupid I was a few months ago. I can't believe whats happening to me last time. I'm all over it and will never ever fall in love again. Love for me is something good and has its on consequence. It's all in the matter of how you wanna your life to be. Otherwise, take it like this. Love will control your life and you will do anything to get and win her heart to you even it takes a special friend to be an enemy of yours. So this I ask, for those who know what love is all about. Please tell everyone about it. Share to others about how you feel when your in love.

This is all coming from me. What about you? I still have lots more to say but I think it doesn't means to anyone out there. Just believe in yourself and you can make through your life without any hurtful feelings and hearts torn apart.

Love is something like this ^.^

This is all.
sayonara!
=DDDD
DWENzayne

millions of cheers sang by TPS students

This year was one of the best performance that I had ever seen before in my school years since I was in that school before. T.P.S (tunku putra school) is used to be one of my previous school last time when I was only primary 1 till primary 6. Right after UPSR is over, my classmates and I was happy that we got our results and all but when it got to the hard part where everyone of us had to say goodbye and farewell to each other. Our school used to not have the national secondary stream. So we had an unlucky year during my last year at that school.

Back to the performance/last assembly for this year,

It all started off with the speech from the principle, Dr. Sue Collins. It was a long speech and everything were spilt out from the teachers which are leaving the school for next year until the results of the UPSR. Everything went great. Right after the speech is done and all, the teachers which is leaving the school next year approaches the stage to say a few words up there. All of them look terribly sad and its sad that they had to leave the school for next year. Mr. Joseph and Ms. Rose was one of the teachers leaving for next year. They both were my teachers when I was in primary school. Mr. Joseph was my Kemahiran Hidup teacher and Ms. Rose was my English teacher. Mr. Jospeh used to be my scout master a while ago before I moved to St. Thomas. They were the greatest.

The scouts celebrated his farewell by singing their hearts out for Mr. Joseph.

After that,

The UPSR results were announced and the students from NP6 went up to claim their certificates and a bouquet of flower. Ryan getting 5A's, Tiffany getting 4A's 1B, and Aldrin getting 3B's 2C's is all I know from them. Sorry about that. Anyways, congratulations to all of you for getting those outstanding results. For those who cannot get the result your hoping for, you tried your best and you'll try harder in the future.

These are the students that were on stage yesterday recieving their certificates.

Other than announcements from today,

There were performances from lots of classes. The best I could say is the girl that sang to the school because it was her last day in TPS. She sang her heart out with grace. When she sang her song, I felt a sudden tinggle in me and I know for sure that shes a good singer. Besides that, there were other performances like the dance off made by class NP6, the dance moves made by my sister's class, the poem reading by one of the classes and lots more. They were all great and the crowd cheered and applaused for the performance they gave. Good for you all. *claps along*

The dance moves that my smaller sister did. Kim Possible..*terer la tek*

Anyways,

It was my smaller sister's birthday. We celebrated her birthday at the school today right after her performance was done. Happy Birthday, Jwena! Hope u had the greatest time ever at that school for this year. She was to called up stage for her wonderful birthday with the other students that are celebrating their birthday's soon.

There they are, singing happy birthday songs on stage.

Have a great day and I hope everything will be the same when next year starts. Wish you all the very best. Great reading my blog again. Have a nice day.

Sayonara.

ByeBye. =DDDDDD

Everything comes with a closure.

Everything in life starts when your born in this particular world. That exact day when your born is a special day and its worth to celebrate. And this day came for my good friend, Nicca, to celebrate hers this year.


It was the night of 12th November 2007,


where it was a great night to celebrate her 15th birthday at the astonishing restaurant that is the one and only, "The Banquet". Its located beside the F&N factory at 3rd Mile. I went there after I fetched Zaki from his house just wanna bring him along with me. Everything went great when I first arrived there. The first person I saw right after I stepped out the car was of course, Nicca. Then Zaki and I went and greeted her a birthday wish while giving her the birthday present Zaki and I bought for her. Let me show you a picture of the present we bought for her.

She asked us to went in to find our seats and all. After our arrival, my ex-classmates from Tunku Putra School arrived. Great meeting them again though. Besides my friends from my old school, there was Nicca's relatives and her tuition classmates there too. We started of with some cake cutting. The cake tastes so delicious and crumbcious. After that, we got our dinner at the buffet served for us all. Gabriel and I had a competition on who can eat the most. I ate about 2 rounds of the food there and Gabriel too ate as much as mine. The others were amazed on how much food was on our plates. Great time indeed.


After that,


There was the entertainers that were there to entertain us. The both of them were funny. I had a great time watching them do their jokes and all. Crazy indeed. Especially at the part where they intend to do magic right in front our naked eyes but I didn't turn out right because of Aishah Ds and faithful companion Owen. He tried to tricked Alister too by putting a coin under the glass of wate and tried to made it dissapeared from your very eyes.

The amazing Owen and his partner-in-crime, Reuben !

The entertainer tried to show Alister the trick that he was actually supposed to do but it didn't worked.

Well, better luck next time. I guess we are just to smart for you. Just kidding. Anyways, Zaki and I was also the victims of the entertainers. The game was all about the absence of the 'yes' 'no' 'erm' 'hmm' in each of the sentences we said. Unfortunately, they got me right on the spot. Darn, why didn't I saw that coming.. To bad, Zaki too said those words. In the end, we got ourselves gifts from them though. The games that the entertainers gave to us was a blast and made a funfilled night for me. Thanks you guys!


In the end,


We got ourselves a fun night and its a blast for us all. Thanks Nicca for inviting me. Your the best.

I'll show you all some drawings on a glass wall that Zaki, Ricco, Reuben and I did yesterday. We got so bored of waiting for our car to arrived so we did this.

If you read it properly, it marks out the word 'Zaki' upside down.

'DZ' stands for Dwen Zain, 'RB' stands for Reuben Bong.

an undefeated victory

Today,

was a fine day till it comes to the part where the people who volunteered themselves to join the PMR Post sports competition among each class starting from 3A till 3F. There was three kinds of sports to pick from. Either you want to join the basketball team, the volleyball team or the soccer team. Its going to be a 3 days long for this competition of ours to end. So I wish you all out there, do the best you can and good luck. Those who weren't participating in any of the games, they will just sit down and see people playing sports. But mostly, they'll just go off and go home. Some will cheer for us all who are playing just now. That includes the 'She-Males' .

Let me cut to the soccer team,

The great Anderian Baling discussing his strategy with his fellow teammates.

There they are, getting all ready for the game of the year..

It wasn't a lucky day for the soccer team for my class at the field. If you look closely into the picture, you'll see that they are all barefooted. Things gets tough when they didn't realise the field was wet and muddy. It makes it even harder to move and all in the field. But overall between these 2 teams, it was a miserable 1 - 1 . It was a great game though but too bad class 3A didn't win it.


Next team, the basketball team,

It was a bad play for our team but our team managed to earned at least 26 points or so. From the way I see it, it looked like the only person who played the game and score the most was our very own Chew Ee. No offense. The others were great too such as Kevin and Bernard. Those are the people who I call a person who does try their best to score and I think they did. Wish you all the best for the next match coming soon. Anyways, Iskandar (star player for our class) ran off somewhere. I'm guessing he was at the soccer field. Otherwise, we should had won the class 3B.


Let's just skip to the next team, shall we?

Our warm up before the match starts.

Thanks for the photo you took for me, Andrew. Great picture.

The last team your going to see in our sports competition is the volleyball team. Lead by the MSSM player itself, Azzre Bin Nazran and another star player of our class, Mohd. Hazlan Syah. I'm in the volleyball team with Benjamin Ong which I suck in it of course. From the way I look at it, we thought we can win this crappy competition but I overestimated the skills that the other team has. We beaten them in the first set. The second set wasn't that good. Failed to win the set. Then it came to the third set, where everyone in my team gets nervous and we intend to make lots of mistakes. So Wasik took out a powerful serve at us all for at least 7 times in a row. And guess what? each and every serve that passed through the net landed in our part of the court. Soon after that, I think to myself, "How are we going to win this game if it keeps on going on?" But at last, we didn't won the match, instead the 3B won the match. Well, at least we tried our best.





A very good job to everyone out there.





That was all in the morning, now to the afternoon.

The table was actually full of pens and papers.

I went to my Leo meeting at the Kaya Toast at Tabuan Jaya. We discussed about our Leo Family Camp thats coming soon on the 23rd November till 25th November. We planned it to be at the Siar Beach, Lundu. We managed to gather around slightly about 40 people to join it throughout every school in Kuching. We planned out every details and every activities that has to be done there. Plannings to be made and done before the real day comes. Anyways, I guess I'll write more about it another time.

Sayonara. Take care. =DDDDDD

ByeBye.

a night at the holiday inn hotel.

A good weekend at our finest hotel around Kuching, the one and only, Holiday Inn Hotel is just what I needed for a break from the stress i got from PMR this year. One night is what I get for my stay at Holiday Inn hotel.


It was fun, joyful, and kind of exciting. Yesterday, we all excluding my dad because he was busy doing something else, managed to get a parking spot at the Sarawak Plaza carpark. At least a parking space because yesterday was kinda packed with cars as its a saturday afernoon. So as soon i got out my car, the first thing I saw was this weird sign on someone's car. Let me show you a picture of it.

So after that,

we went to the hotel receptionist. It didnt take long because my mom somehow got a free room. She didnt wanted to waste it, so she brought all of us. The room isn't that nice but then we had to get along with it. Anyways, soon after that, my brother and I managed to walk around Sarawak Plaza and off to Parkson. It was fun and all then all of a sudden, I met an old friends of mine and Azzra. Azzra looked like he was dating with my friend's sister. I didn't care much anyways. So there I was, talking with my old friend, Aishah Ds, mostly we talk about how's our life been going for us both. We were all at the Coffee Bean right at the Sarawak Plaza. Mocha and Vanilla was our choice of drink yesterday. Great drinks there. Sadly, the others had to leave as her parents were there already. Azzra followed them. Don't know what might that Azzra do. Some mysteries are not meant to be solved.

Later on the day,

We went for a swim at the hotel swimming pool. My siblings and I wasted our whole day at the swimming pool. Overall, it was fun. Besides that, I got a little sunburned from all those swim yesterday. After swimming, we went to the Topspot FoodCourt. Its just opposite Tun Jugah. Its where all the greatest seafood are served in every kind of dishes. They have my personal favourite, the oyster omellette and the lemon chicken. Delicious.. We ate about 6 dishes in all varities. Includes the rice too. We had a fabulous night last night. We cant even bare to walk properly. We were all in a total mess. Damn, its so funny. Laughter filled the air last night.

We took a picture of us right in front of the Kuching Statue itself.

It so happenned that Crowne Plaza had a big event that was held there. There was somekind of fashion show there. My friend was in there. She's one the model there. Didn't know that till she told me last night. Well, if your reading this Zoe, good work and a job well done. Anyways, I was so exhausted from all the activities yesterday. But the thing is I cant sleep last night. The event held at Crown Plaza kept me up all night. It ended right around 10pm. Still considered it early though. Later on, Zoe ask me to meet her at the hotel lobby. So I did went down. Such a coincidence that she was there with her friend, Joash. Darn, why did you have to ring my room doorbell? Nevermind about that.

Today,

We didnt do much. At least I had a good swim with my brother and sister. We only got to swim for one hour but less than 2 hours. Soon we just get some breakfast at Sugarbun, Parkson. Then, we shop, shop and shop even more. Well, at least I met my friend again, Selwyn. We talk and chat till I had to go back home. My mum bought herself lots of clothes. From my estimation of the price, she at least spend RM730 on those MNG clothes. Darn, i could buy a new phone with that kinda money. Its not my money. So I cant complain anything about it.

Now,

Back at home. Blogging, chatting, and going to play Gunz later on is what im doing now. So ill post something soon. Hopefully.

Take care. =DDDD

DWENzayne

hasn't this been a pleasant day at tuition.

yes.. its another day at my tuition. how fun can it be. with all my tuition classmates.
they just lightens up my day. hehe.
some of us just cant appriciate what my teachers give to us. but the usuals was exercise, exercise and more of it. sometimes we get bored, we can do lots of unimaginable things. something crazy perhaps. haha.
especially the time when i play with george with what we call 'aerobics'. haha

but when we have to study, we will study hard. the classroom will just starts to get quiet and in silence. it just seems scary when it gets quiet. cause normally our class is always noisy. haha.
but through it all, sri bintang is the best tuition i've ever been in my life. nothing can beat the teachers teaching here. haha. every teacher just gets your attention with their own ways.
for example, my teacher who drives a red atos. hehe. sorry teacher.
most of the days of a week, his always around at my tuition. nothing can seem to stop this teacher from teaching. haha.
among all the teachers i know in my life, his one of the best. including the ones from tunku. hehe.

Besides the teachers, the students also will give a big influence to my studies.
They also play a big role in my studies. They will help me and guide me and i hope they will continue it. thanks alot guys. i hope i've done my part too.

hmm.. puasa. omg..im so terribly hungry. haha.
i hope it will be over soon.
thanks everyone. in tuition, in school, in the public places.
you have my gratitude for everything.



here's some pictures to remind me of the tuition life at the Sri Bintang Tuition Centre. (king centre)

and dedicated to our beloved classmate thats moving away soon, malisa. this is for u.


the class photo.



Emo writings on our tuition table.courtesy of the form 3 2007.!








George. next time do the ad on the tele.

japenese~ woot~ =D

here it goes. every year, the YE (youth exchange) students comes to our place here. in Kuching.
this was done for a few years already. every year a different group comes. =D

that means = more girls. and for the girls equals to more guys. haha.

they arrived on the 9th August 2007. they werent that used to the weather here. so u could see their faces are totally red.

after they arrived here at the airport. there were 12 of them. 2 boys only and the others are girls. woot~~ each of them are divided and send to their lion's (guardian for the meanwhile till the trip ends. )

the lion's will take them to their room that is located at every lion's personal house.

{so we can consider this a bit as a homestay}

anyways, the next day. that is friday.

my leo club made a plan by bringing them here to St. Thomas. and it end up well.

okok. lets start.

it was a perfect day for them to come. but maybe a bit sunny. =.="

there they were. arriving at our school. {sorry i dun have the pics. i do have the pics. juz later on.}

each car were carrying 2~3 YE's. too bad one of the YE werent there. she was sick. sobs. get well soon. =)

when they arrived, one of leo's got us some souvenier that we could give to them for rememberance. =D

we gave them the souveniers while shakin hands with all of them. it was fun. hehex.

later on the visit, we brought them to the resource centre at the science block.

one of my friends just kept on asking which one to choose. haha. sorry. im not going to choose any. eventhough some of them are cute and pretty. huhu.

when we arrived at the resource centre. we arranged seats and prepared food for all of them.

lets move on. miss magdalan and mrs jeniffer kong was telling them about our school through the presentation of the school. it was fantastic. and the YE's enjoyed it alot. and besides that, they seem to be very amazed with all the landscapes of the school. hehex

after the presentation. there it was. the award for the YE's from Leo Club and the school.

These are the few pics of the award. we gave them a statue of a lion and leo thingy to hang around. hahax. some of the girls are nice. hehe. =D

sorry i cant take all of them. everyone was busy with somethings.so we cant manage to get all of them. =(

getting all my love out of me.

hi all. its been a long time i didn't update.

i'm sorry. i just get caught up with too many things. why is everything in my life just gets worst everyday. i dont know how to say it. but every week there is surely something happening. and it always involves me in it. haix. all this gotta stop. i stoped it on 30 Jun 2007. after that day, my life totally changed into a new life. eveything just stops for a moment. at that exact moment, i realise something that i just cant realise a long time ago. the thing i realised was i should let my love go. ='(

it took me a long time to get over it. i hear sad songs, i cried, i locked myself in the room for hours. and never answered her call. or replied anyone's sms. my life was torned up into pieces. but i guess its for my own good.

okay. now skip to the present day,
after those incidents, i felt kinda free from everything in my life oncemore. love just cant last long in this kind of age. but if that 2 lovers really loves each other more than anything in life. they might last long, maybe till marraige. =D good luck with all the couples out there! hehe.
now. the girl and i are just good friends. nothing out of the ordinary. haix. sometimes i just miss her. but what can i do. she also said that how she misses me. even when i talk to her on the phone. its like everyday she calls me to say hi and how am i. i just love how she got so much credit and talk to me for hours. hehe. thanks.
all my heart wanted was you. but believe it or not. she just cant accepted how i love her a long time ago. im currently holding and getting a grip to myself because of love. no matter how much you forced her to love you, she won't be yours. HOW COULD YOU FORCE PEOPLE TO LOVE SOMEONE?
thats just not how a lover should do it. and jas and azzra. u both are just terrible. sama sama la you both. and please dont kacau her anymore la. she just hurts and always not in the mood cause of ALVIN, JASMINE, and not forgeting AZZRA. i can prove how bad they treat her. but i cant show it out. azzra's the worst amongst all. all he knows is just ruins people's life..

azzra just dont know whats love,

i could tell that love is everything in life,

just go and do a better move,

a move that doesnt ruins people's life.

lots of stripes that haves by a zebra,

every stripes means something,

and its like alvin but worst than azzra,

wastes his time with i love you saying.

jasmine has always been azzra's favorite,

but she just cant get away from anyone's buisness,

some people are just turned up to be someone inside,

ending up with deep sadness

oh ya. omg. i almost beat u. lucky nia u. hehe.

i din study. =.=" nvm. let u beat me first. haha. =D

okay. i guess thats all i could say now. i will try my best to blog soon. hehe.

bye everyone. and remember. our fragile hearts just cant take this strong feelings to the max. c ya!~

sayonara.

DWENzayne~

my heart just can't get enough of you. in a loving way.

please accept for everything I'm saying to you. but i don't know would you accept for being with a guy like me? that's all i gotta say. (you know who you are)

someday when i'm offly low, when the world was lonely,

i could see you there, just by thinking of you.

your lovely with your smile so warm,

when ur body so cold, there is nothing but to love you.

with each words, your tenderness grows.

tearing my fears apart.

and that laugh, that wrinkles your nose. it touches my foolish heart.

your love will never ever change.

keep that breathless charm, would you please arrange it.

cause i love you. and the ways u talk and think.

i never thought i need you when im alone.

and the time passes. makes me feel how much i need you.

all i could think when your gone was only you.

everywhere. everytime. anyhow.

i just cant get enough of you. even when your gone.

never a doubt. its always you in my life.

that makes me calm down and relax at times.

but no matter how or when.

im always there when you need me. never the less.

your always there for me when i need you. thanks for being there for me.

you've been a wonderful and loving person in my life.

i hope that someday. just someday. we could try to make things out.

till my big exam is over and done. =)

your my life, my soul, my everything.

DWENzayne

okay.. now a different story.

OMG.. robotic today. walao. siao ah juz now.

hahaha.. my mind was going balastic. wakakaka.

but got 15 out of 41 teams.. dats cool. but if it wasnt for mark's designing we wouldn't be even in no.15. hahaha. xD

thanks mark.. hehe..

(ben jealous le. wakakaka)

oklar. bye.

love ya.

sayonara.

this is the END for ME

life can be full of obstacles and journeys we have to get through. seeing everything passes by each day, each minute, each seconds is outstanding. everything passes by right in front of your eyes. never to be seen by anyone who doesnt respects and understand what's life is all about.
friends are merely one of the main reasons why are we living and happy in this world. but maybe some friends are just mainly there to betray you. or maybe a pest in ur life. so thats why we must choose our friends wisely and choose them with your full trust. believe me.. i know what are real friends and what isn't.

unseemly some our friends might be on to our wealth and health. some can even disguist as your own bestfriend while they take advantages of you. but what can you do if you see this kind of people. its fact. its life. its the end.

XOXO
DWENzayne

everything in my life is YOU..

my life is meaningless without you in my life.

i get my strength all from you. cause your everything in my life.

nothing can change the fact that your here for me.

no matter what happens.

and i wil always be there for you too.

my life is fulfill when i see you around. eventhough its only a few minutes.

we both have a thing in common. everything about us is great.

and i like about that. i'm just being a good man for you.

but for the first time i met you. my heart was pumping like crazy. non-stop.=)

and there was you. smiling like always.

after that day, i guess i fell in love with you.

nothing about you change since that day.

im always crazy about you. never stopped liking u and loving u since the day i met you.

but now there seems to be a huge and large wall.

that made our relationship blocked.

all because of a few things in life. one is my friends. they seem to like her.

or maybe love her. kenak sidak ya poser gilak hor. ish.

all i can do now is just relax and be patient.

and we cannot rush to any conclusions. haix.

why are friends like this to us? eventhough we are their bestfriend.

okay. now try being in my shoes. see how does it feels to get betrayed a close friend.

won't that makes you wanna get angry. or u might feel dissapointed.

cause how could a friend do a such thing like this.

that is just so cruel by the way he treats his fellow friends.

i cant explain it any longer. cause this day on forward.

im so not going to care about that friend anymore. he had just gone to much sometimes.

but for the info, by the way he messages her and talk with her.

its like they don't connect at all.

there's nothing special about him.

no offence though.

i guess this is all i could write about today.

bye~

DWENzayne

for the person who is reading this blog. i guess some of you people out there,

knows who am i talking about. for those who doesnt knows.

i guess u have to find it out yourself. XD

my life's the worst!

why does love hurts. I guess theres lots of ways to say about it.

its a fact that we must accept in reality. We can't do much about it but just moving on.

thats all we can do for mean time. We get the point really is how love affects our life.

it hurts us deeply. As deep as it can go. Never a doubt, it hurts everything in our life.

Including our love ones, creatures around us and the most hurtful person will feel this is the community around us.

whats up with all the problem in life.

and why did God made love for us?

it makes me curious to know everything about love.

but what can we do to stop our curiousness from getting far.

its just a matter of time till it fades away.

First love sometimes will come true and maybe it will not.

but whats the point.. it may last long but not long enough till it comes to an end.

the movies and the series you see on televisions. It might not come true in reality.

what the heck, we can always try right?

all we gotta do is believing in yourself.

trusting and being loyal to ur love ones is the best way to be loved back.

i tried to did it with mine and it ended badly..

Well, we all can't blame it all on love. Its natural to love someone.

and it comes to a closure sometimes.

getting hurt at every moment.

as if my life is full of craps but this feelings will always keep me alive.

and i will not ever stop loving anyone till i found the right one.

but I think I found it. Its just that i never realise whats happening in my life.

but now.. i found that special one thats suitable for me.

but the thing is I can't be with her..

cause she cant give me anny good reasons why..

one of it was that she has to study for the PMR exam.

my life is all about her but there seems to be a friend.

who is such a BACKSTABBER!!

but what can i do about it..

but it is in fact that she doesnt likes him.

by the way she talks to me, or sms with me.

we both have lots of connections and alot of things in common.

by the way i think about it, im truly deeply and madly

IN LOVE WITH HER!

=D

i guess thats all i could say any longer.

sayonara. bye~

DWENzayne